More and more pills.

So today's appt. did not go as I had hoped it would. The u/s showed nothing developing in my ovaries. So this dose of 100mg of Clomid did not work either. Here we go again, adjusting dosage after dosage, just like with my Thyroid...feels like De Ja Vu.

I got really upset after the u/s and Dr. H seemed a little surprised that I was so upset. Um, this is really tough! I know that there is a high possibility that things aren't going to work right away, but I was really hoping this was our time. Just to have those follicles there to have a real shot at conceiving. To find out there's NOTHING. It's like there's no reason to even try, because there are no eggs to fertilize. Ugh.

I'm going to start taking a baby aspirin a day and honestly I have no clue why. I am taking progestone to induce my period. So 7 days of those pills and within 10 days after that I should have my period. Then on day 3 of my cycle I start the next dose of Clomid, 150mg. So not only am I taking my Levothyroxine for my Thyroid and my daily vitamin, now I have to add the baby aspirin... She also had me tested for high insulin and if it is high, then she's going to have me take yet another pill. Thankfully the Progestone and Clomid are only for a few days.

Dr. H said a few more tries with the Clomid and if it doesn't work we'll move onto injectable treatments. Oh yippee. I just want to be able to be pregnant and have a child with Andy and become a mother. All this bad news is killing me inside. I'll do anything to become pregnant, but it's getting harder...

I don't even know if I can talk to anyone about this anymore, it hurts to talk.