Phase 2

Phase 2 is complete!

At noon we went into the office to see Dr. H to have the IUI done. Even though I knew it wasn't going to be painful or anything I was still quite nervous.

We went right in. I dropped my drawers and she showed me Andy's vial...our names on it, our color...YELLOW...and then she filled up the syringe and went to town. HA! She said things were a little difficult looking, she wasn't sure if she'd have to "adjust" but she then started to put the catheter in and said "we got lucky it went right in!" Less than a minute later she's done and told me I could sit up. She said if I don't get my period by Sept 15th that I should call and we'll do a pregnancy test. If I get it before then, also call to know when to start the Clomid over.

I hope that it's the prior...I really have a lot of faith in this...that's it's all the help we needed. Ovulation was just a hit and miss with me, and this little extra "push" was the thing that will get us pregnant! Waiting 2 weeks to get my period or not...is a long time...I've been through this so many times...hopefully it doesn't come like a day late or something...then I'll be PISSED! Keep the faith...right? That's what we're doing! I really hope this works!

Dr. H also explained the sperm wash to us a little more. It was quite interesting! They removed the sperm from the seminal fluid and put it into this sterile fluid...then they washed it, or isolated a majority of the the motile sperm to increase the number. Andy started out before the washing with 64% motile and 36% immotile. After the washing there were 96% motile and 4% immotile...what a difference!!! In this sample there were 14.5 million sperm! She said that 3 million is good, so this was GREAT! So hopefully that will also give us a better chance to conceive this time!

Phase 1

Phase 1 Complete!

Andy collected his sample at 8:15 this morning and we drove it in and dropped it off to the tech who does the wash at 8:45.

I can't wait to hear how it looks...all this is so interesting to me!

An Egg!!!!!!!!

So today was my 3rd ultrasound after my 3rd adjustment of the Clomid.

AND I HAVE AN EGG! WOOOOOHOOOOOO!
We're so excited...that there's something finally happening in my ovaries! Well at least the left ovary at this point. I'm so happy that the Dr didn't say..."oh they're quiet again..." meaning my ovaries...I couldn't bear to hear that! Now I know the Clomid is working.

Here's our next step:
First...I have an egg that's ready to drop soon. So to make it drop I got an hCg shot today as well. This shot in my hip will make my egg release within 48hrs. Tomorrow Andy has to wake up bright and early and give a specimen sample...we can collect it at home this time...and bring it in at 8:45am...the lab tech will wash the sperm...meaning separate the good ones from the not so good ones. Then at 12:15 I will be heading in to have an IUI...intrauterine insemination. They'll take the washed sperm and inject it through a small catheter in my cervix and this will cause the sperm to release into my uterus! They get to be right there, waiting for the egg to drop! Then 2 weeks later I take a pregnancy test, if it works we'll know...if not, we try again.

We're very hopeful, but also are keeping in mind that there's a high chance we'll have to try multiple times for this to be successful. I'd love for it to work the first time, who wouldn't. We'll keep praying and doing everything we can to make it happen!

Emotional Roller Coaster

So my insulin level was a little high, what that means I don't really know, but I'll ask Friday. I'm taking Metformin for that now too, so just add another pill to my plate. I've gotta get one of those pill organizers that old folks use to keep track. Seriously.

I go see Dr. H for another u/s Friday, two days from now. At 9am, Andy's going to come with me as usual...he wants to be there for me, and I want him there. Luckily his job is so flexible. Hopefully we'll get pregnant soon and not have to go so much! I'm hopeful, but I'm also a little more pessimistic this time. I'm assuming there's nothing and we're going to have to do 200mg of Clomid. Then after that...who knows.

My emotions are so wacky, I've got to be driving Andy nuts. I apologize all the time, hopefully he knows how hard it is to go through this week after week. Watching him hold our newborn niece Hannah makes my heart melt. He feels the same. We are trying to be more verbal about all those crazy feelings, but it's hard, I always start to cry, then he freaks.

More and more pills.

So today's appt. did not go as I had hoped it would. The u/s showed nothing developing in my ovaries. So this dose of 100mg of Clomid did not work either. Here we go again, adjusting dosage after dosage, just like with my Thyroid...feels like De Ja Vu.

I got really upset after the u/s and Dr. H seemed a little surprised that I was so upset. Um, this is really tough! I know that there is a high possibility that things aren't going to work right away, but I was really hoping this was our time. Just to have those follicles there to have a real shot at conceiving. To find out there's NOTHING. It's like there's no reason to even try, because there are no eggs to fertilize. Ugh.

I'm going to start taking a baby aspirin a day and honestly I have no clue why. I am taking progestone to induce my period. So 7 days of those pills and within 10 days after that I should have my period. Then on day 3 of my cycle I start the next dose of Clomid, 150mg. So not only am I taking my Levothyroxine for my Thyroid and my daily vitamin, now I have to add the baby aspirin... She also had me tested for high insulin and if it is high, then she's going to have me take yet another pill. Thankfully the Progestone and Clomid are only for a few days.

Dr. H said a few more tries with the Clomid and if it doesn't work we'll move onto injectable treatments. Oh yippee. I just want to be able to be pregnant and have a child with Andy and become a mother. All this bad news is killing me inside. I'll do anything to become pregnant, but it's getting harder...

I don't even know if I can talk to anyone about this anymore, it hurts to talk.