it's a GO!

I went for my mid-cycle u/s today and have 2 follicles that are almost ready to release an egg. I have been instructed to continue with my injections tonight and tomorrow night and then have Andy give me the hCg injection Sunday morning. Then Monday Andy drops off his specimen and I go in for my IUI. After all this, we'll wait 2 weeks and see if my body takes things to a different place this time, or if it doesn't work again. What a nice start to the new year would it be to find out we're pregnant. I can't imagine it! I'm very hopeful this round and hopefully my body agrees with my mind!

Bloodwork is my middle name

Had bloodwork Wednesday when I went for my appt. Then had bloodwork again yesterday, and have to have it again on Thursday. Hopefully that'll be it and I'll be ready to come in on Friday for my u/s.
At ACM yesterday there was a lady sitting next to me and she heard me tell the tech that I was a patient of Dr. Hayes. So she asked to make sure, and we talked a little bit while waiting for our turn. It was kinda weird, but kinda nice. Seems like no matter who you are, if you're going through this in some way, you've got a bond with all women who are going through it, or have gone through it. She's got a son that she had at my age...so I'm guessing she's in her mid to late 30s... and trying again. She's got one child, so that gives me hope!

2nd try with injections

I went to have my baseline u/s yesterday. Dr. H started off by saying that if I'm not pregnant this time we'll try once more maybe and then move on to a different medication. That puts me at such ease. I'd rather keep moving than keep trying and failing over and over and over. Which is what it feels like. But in reality...we did Clomid and IUI 3 times, and this will be our 2nd try with FSH injections and IUI. Hopefully, as always, this time it works! My u/s was nice, everything looked like it was supposed to. At this point their looking for cysts that may have formed, and I didn't have any. So I went for my bloodwork and start injections tonight if that comes back okay. About 10 days of these injections give or take, and then I'll head back in for another u/s to see what's cookin'! Then back to waiting to see if things worked out this cycle. Keep your fingers crossed!

I feel completely defeated.

I definately got my period. Can't we ever win?

I'm waiting and waiting, just to be disappointed once again. It hurts more each time. It feels like I have no chance of ever becoming pregnant. I can't deal with this much longer.

But I will do whatever it takes.