Lost the battle, about to win the war!

So I got my stinking period last night. So, we do have to do the injectable drugs. I was really hoping, as I always am. It's just as hard as every other time!

BUT...I have more hope going into this next cycle with a new plan in action. These injections will increase everything and my chances will be even better! I can't do anything but take care of myself and continue to have hope.

My best friend told me yesterday, that I'm destined to be a mother, and I believe that so much. I just can't wait much longer for it to be a reality!

Wish us luck!

Next Treatment

So today Andy and I went to an information session about Injectable FSH. What this is, is a hormone that your body already produces, and they're just increasing the levels by injecting more of this hormone. What that in turn does is creates more eggs! With the Clomid I was producing one follicle, so the chances were quite low for it to survive. With the FSH injection we could have 5, 10 even 50 eggs at a time! Only one should fully develop and release for the chance of conception. So this injection will definitely increase our chances! It also thickens the lining of the uterus, making it a better environment for the fertilized egg to attach and grow!

There a two side effects:
1. Multiples...twins are about 15% common, triplets and more are way less common, but still a possibility.
2. Ovarian Hyperstimulation...causes pain in the ovaries and enlarges them, in turn sucking water from blood cells and can be prevented 100%. Only women at high risk get this, and they can tell if you are high risk BEFORE they start the injections.

So, I was spotting this morning, and nothing since then, waiting until tomorrow to see if I've got my full blown period. If so, I'll call the Dr. and set up an u/s for either tomorrow or Saturday, and they'll make sure it's okay to start the injections and teach me how to do 'em!!! I don't want to have to start this treatment, hoping maybe I'm not really getting my period, just spotting...but at least it's a much more likely chance of conceiving!

What's to come...or not...

So today I went to Dr. H about what we'll do next if the Clomid and IUI didn't work. This was my third try. Here's the list she made:



1. Continue with 150 mg Clomid & IUI

2. Try a different pill with IUI for 3 cycles

3. Use injectable fertility drugs & IUI

4. Perform a Laparascopy (an elective surgery where they go in and take a look-used if

they're totally unsure of why things aren't working right)

5. IVF-in-vitro fertilization (this is our last resort because it definatley is very expensive)



So her advice was to continue with the Clomid and IUI's for 3 more cycles, and things might work out, or if I'm ready to try something different, convinced if this 3rd try didn't work, that we start injectable fertility drugs. So I definately opted for the latter. I am anxious, and hoping that this last try was successful, and we won't know for sure until this weekend, but if it didn't work, God forbid, then I'm MORE than ready to try something new!



So we're going to go to a class where the Drs. will talk all about the drugs that we will be injecting and what they're actually doing...and then if need be we'll learn how to do the injections at our first appt for that. Like I said, if we're pregnant, then we scrap all of this, and go down the exciting path of pregnancy, totally different appts, something I'm looking more forward to than anything!



I'll update Thursday after our class, when I'll be more informed about the drugs. Hopefully not too long after that, we'll have some good news!

Even Harder

Is when we're visiting friends or family with babies. Especially Andy's brother. Don't get me wrong we LOVE our niece and are so excited to watch her grow and be there every step of the way. But watching Andy hold her and play with her and totally fall in love...it's very difficult. Then we go home, or they leave or whatever, and he starts saying how much he wants his own child. Talk about a shock to the heart. I get so emotional when that happens. We can only keep trying, and that's what we're doing. Hopefully this is our time and if not, hopefully not too much longer.

Also, when we don't get included because we don't have a child yet. Tonight is Halloween and they're invited to Andy's parents for dinner, because Hannah will be in costume, and we weren't invited. It happens a lot. Not cool.

The Hard Part

Yeah, this is the hard part. Waiting. Again and again!
It's been 3 days since my IUI and we've had sex many times, on top of that...as we do everytime around ovulation! So if this is our time, and we really believe it could be, then things are already set in place.

Fertilization takes place withing 24 hours of the egg being released from the ovary. The hCg shot makes me ovulate within 30-40 hours after the shot, so they do the IUI at a certain time because of that...and then we just have intercourse for the next few days to give us more of a chance...that's the fun part! If the egg dropped when it was supposed to and the sperm met the egg, it should fertilize in the fallopian tube and then withing 3 days travel to the uterus and implant around 6 days after ovulation. That's what they say anyhow. So hopefully my egg was met by a lucky sperm and fertilized and is making it's way to my uterine lining where it makes itself comfy and then grows into a baby!

I really hope that this time it's meant to be! If not, we'll be talking about what to do next...and I'll be continuing this infertility blog...if so, I'll post once more and then maybe change the name or start a new blog!

Please keep your fingers crossed!